Eto na naman ako. Nagsisimula ng panibagong blog.
Ako ay isang kakasablay lamang na iska. Where am I now? a. Call center munaaaa gaman naman lagi pag fresh grads b. Nasa isang malaking company, iska e, malamang may trabaho na yan, the first Monday after grad! c. Ayun, nasa America na ata, umo-OTWOL lang ang peg, follow your american dream…
Eh. Pwede gang may none of the above? Thug life kasi ako sa ngayon. Haha okay, that’s an exaggeration. Actually, I am waiting for a call for my contract signing *fingers crossed* but currently, I take on editing and writing jobs, in short self-employed ako sa ngayon. Well, there’s that pero full time katulong muna ako sa bahay namin haha! I am happy to be helping my family while semi supporting myself through these editing jobs.
I am kinda feeling the pressure though, since last week pa. My friends are already pursuing their media careers, some are teaching already in big universities. Yung iba nasa DOST, DAP…other government agencies pa. Yung iba nagvo-volunteer, pumupunta sa kung san-san. Samantalang yung iba, nasa final interviews na nila. Swerte nila kasi pinapansin agad ang kanilang resume sent online huhu.
I can’t say I have not felt a twinge of jealousy because I have. But I trust God when He says, He will not forsake me, that He made me a life of purpose. So ayun. Gora pa rin ako with life naman. Praying helps!
I have this habit na tuwing may tatawag saking possible job, I grab my bible/devotional/or any christian book at naghahanap ng word galing kay God. Advice kumbaga. I dunno, I think I’m searching for…His assurance na eto na yun! Eto na yung pinakahihintay kong work.
One day ang nabuklat ko sa isang Daily Bread book na devotional is about John 19:28-30 wherein Jesus said that He was thirsty…after that the will of God was fulfilled. Grabe patak patak na luha ko non kasi I can’t say I have been the best child ni Lord. I was so dry, my prayer life was little to non-existent. Pero ang ginawa ni Jesus to fulfill God’s will ay ang mauhaw pa sa God the Father. Eh ayun. Taliwas ako e. Lumalapit lang ako kay Lord tuwing may kailangan lang ako which is very wrong. So ayun, na enlighten ako, para gang may angels’ chorus sa background going “hwaaaaaaaa”.
Bottomline talaga e wala pakong trabaho penge namang trabaho jan. Haha just kidding.
I also want to say na oo andaming trabaho na tumawag sakin na willing na tanggapin ako right then and there pero a. Pabebe ako? b. Tinatamad lang c. Baba ng sweldo, hindi worth it?
Actually again, wala sa options. Yes. Yung mga trabahong tumawag sakin wala naman sa options ko kasi I’d rather work for a low paying job na gusto ko ang environment at worthwhile ang ginagawa ko dun such as NGOs na nagko-contribute sa nationbuilding. Kaysa naman sa trabahong high-paying as in 💵💵💵 wooo, pero in the long run naman, alam kong it will suck my soul out, suck my idealistic outlook. Yung maitatanong mo habang nagta-type ka sa harap ng mac computer desktop, crouched in your chair in a vast office, “Para saan ba tong ginagawa ko? Ano ang meaning ng layp?” Chas. You know what I mean.
So you, yes you, reading my post who is currently unemployed or stuck in a fork road just like me. It is so okay to take your time. Wag mong pansinin yung pamemresyur sayo ng magulang mo haha they only want the best for you anyways. Though I can understand na mayroon ding fresh grads na tipong may limang kapatid pang papaaralin at nakapangako kay inay ng house and lot, dre, I can understand the pressure. Just seek God okay. Also, I will be praying for an open heaven para sating mga naghihintay ng work opportunity. Ya’ll only have to believe in it and you shall receive in Jesus’s name!
That’s it for this first blog post.
Stay real, have faith! 😘👊
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