Seek the blessor and not the blessing: On beauty and art, blessings, and my favorite sin

On beauty and art.

“Kuhanan mo yan ng picture, Michi. Ang ganda o! [Take a picture of this, Michi. So beautiful!]”


So I begrudgingly took a photo of this boring scenery. I mean, yes it is beautiful with all the bougainvillea “flowers” fallen to the ground, like it is autumn. Come to think of it, I phrased that rather, beautifully. You may be thinking what a killjoy/weirdo I am to think of this scene, boring.

If I were to take this photo, I will not capture the whole thing, I will focus on the colorful and vibrant, metamorphosed leaves of the bougainvillea (Erratum: This is not bougainvillea at all, sorry! But it is the thought that counts.). I think it’s beautiful how the leaves are the main event in this plant species and not the tiny flowers.

If I were to take this photo, I will capture what is real. And the “flowers” here are lies. By capturing the photo as it is, people will think, “Oh, what a pretty scene.” but they won’t know its mysteries, they won’t know that the colorful “flowers” that lie on the ground are actually leaves. The whole, supposedly beautiful scene will then be devalued, will be simplified into an ordinary, pretty scene. Boring.

People ask me questions why do I pay attention to say, abandoned nurseries, they say I should take a photo of a flower instead. Why? because in that abandoned nursery, there is life inside. No one will know it unless I go and capture those beautifully lined seedlings inside plastic pots.


Why pay attention to already pretty things? Why not focus on the “ugly”? I find it extremely attractive and beautiful and amazing (hehehe) when a person “notices”. When a person notices the beauty beyond and despite the flaws, and somehow to this person, the flaws magnify the beauty.

On blessings. Let’s discuss my “favorite” sin.

“Seek the blessOR and not the blessing.”

Last Sunday was a reminder for me to always have a grateful heart. Because when you become so full of praise and thanksgiving and gratefulness, you develop a heart of humility.

Let’s talk about my favorite sin. It’s not so much that I like doing this sin in fact, I hate myself for this sin. I am proud. I am too boastful. Mayabang. Kinakahiya ko ‘yon. Sometimes, I even am proud of myself for being humble (if that makes sense). Sometimes I boast that I am a Christian so HA! I am better than you, you, and you because yall don’t know nothing. It takes a lot of courage to own up to this sin. As I have earlier said, I delude myself into thinking that I am not proud, that I only boast in my God. But I was wrong, wrong, wrong.

This is why the proverb, Humility Before Honor is so close to my heart. I was unconsciously battling this favorite sin of mine as I consciously rated myself if I was humble. It does not help that God blessed me with all these talents (ayan ang yabang ko na naman!) and every time I read the bible, I am always reading “You are special, you are my daughter” — Sino ba namang hindi lalaki ang ulo kapag sinabihan ka non ni Lord?! My fault? I am handling this sin by my own. I thought I could heal myself. I thought I was being mature. Pero ang pinapairal ko lang pala ay ang kayabangan ko. I was only feeding my sin. I should have surrendered this sin to God because I cannot heal myself, only He can.

By seeking the blessor, by praising Him first, this is a way to develop a humble heart. A heart that seeks humility before honor.  A heart that does not lean to its own understanding, a heart that follows the convictions of the Holy Spirit. That is the heart that I want.

So Lord, develop in me this principle: Humility Before Honor.

Seek the blessor and not the blessing: On beauty and art, blessings, and my favorite sin

Ministry, a prison cell?

I saw this photo on a facebook page of a christian retail store, Worship Generation.


There is FREEDOM in the name of Jesus. I sincerely believe in that because I have genuinely felt and experienced freedom in Jesus.  What worries me though, is that some christians may not be able to experience this because of…well, a number of reasons.

But let us talk about one: Misinterpretation on commitment.

When I commit to Christ, when I said YES to His invitation in heaven knowing that this requires me to chase after Him in this race called life, I know I am doing a lifetime commitment not only to God but also to His church, my church.

The church is my family that God designed for me to be with. A ministry where I can grow so I can be the God version of me. But it is also a church that God wanted me to help build in order to further His kingdom, in order for the church to be its own God version. This is a calling I cannot refuse to answer.

One thing that bothered me so much though is the analogy of one of the youth leaders of my church on “commitment.” She likened commitment to a ministry to a “prison cell in which you can never be paroled,” a lifetime commitment, so she said. I thought that this analogy was made in an effort to send a message across that being in a ministry is not just for fun, that commitment is not just a fancy word you say flippantly in a conversation with your pastor. It is meant to be taken seriously.

But there is supposed to be freedom in Jesus, right? The truth will set you free and all that. Why should a church member feel they should be imprisoned? My heart breaks because she is just a student, practically a kid and she already feels this way, so old but not mature, so tired of responsibilities. What is happening to the moms and dads of the church? What is happening to the adult ministry? Why are they putting so much weight on this kid? On us, the Youth ministry? I feel so sorry that some of the youth is burdened to the point that they feel that being in a church is like a prison cell. That they speak so like an old person who forgot to put wisdom in their rickety luggage.

I feel so sorry that some may feel this way or you may feel this way. Remember, there is healing, there is freedom in Jesus! No one is supposed to feel like a their trapped in a church. Listen. True commitment does not feel like this. True commitment is when it is not a chore to be serving Jesus, it is not a chore to serve in a church. True commitment produces a cheerful heart, a willing servant-leader whose aim is to chase after God’s heart.

God blessed me with the wisdom and understanding in commitment. Commitment is like marriage in my country, the Philippines, there is no divorce. You have to stay in sickness or in health because you love this church very much, I love my church very much. While I grow in my church, I slowly see the flaws in my church, my eyes are opened, my expectations…they were not met. Many times, I asked myself, “Is it time to leave this church?” Because I was not growing anymore, the church cannot give me what I needed. But I realized I’ve been asking the wrong question. I should be asking God what I can do to help my church, how can I further God’s kingdom. I realized my love for the church grew deeper because of all the heartaches I have experienced, all the flaws I have seen, the broken people I have met with their own testimonies… How can someone not give compassion and grace? How can someone just…leave? I can’t. I have understood my calling. I have understood commitment.

Pray for wisdom on what true commitment really is because if you feel like you are trapped in your ministry, then there is something wrong in the leadership or in yourself. Change your mindset and try to see that you are not alone in building the church of Christ! You are NOT! I repeat you are NOT! You are free, in Jesus’s name.

God bless beautiful people of God 🙂
Stay real, be blessed,

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Ministry, a prison cell?

The church

Relevant Magazine:

Wow. So beautiful.
This is exactly it.

The church should act like a battery charger where christians gather together unafraid to show how broken they are and despite that, Jesus still love them and they love Him back because God loved them first.

We all have a different tasks. We all have missions that God appointed us to. We go there, and testify about Jesus. Bringing Jesus to every dark corner of the world. And in the last day, the seventh day, we gather together as the church. Praising God for what He enabled us to do. Recharging and learning more about His word through the Pastor’s exhortation. It is where we commune.

Wow. I love this idea of the church.

The church I am in, I think we are not there yet. We are just a small church. Too small, that the leadership needs their members at their arms’ length, always.

I think our church has plenty to learn and I have faith that God is blessing us and tuning us up as the church He sees us to be, the church of Christ 🙂


THIS. This part of the article strike a chord in me. We would not be much of a church at all if any church member would only attend when they did not feel tired, busy, or stressed. One word: Commitment. If every member would commit, then the church that God wanted for us would be so easy to fulfill, reaching out to people, doing charity works that would make an impact in a whole community would be easy for a church to do.

Somehow, a church is restricted to doing missionary works, works that Jesus did in the bible because of lack of commitment as a church memeber. We cannot just “go and make diaciples” when we cannot make our own disciples out of our church members…

So, commitment.
We are not there yet. But we will be.
Signing out,

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The church

Nasaan ka na work? What is da meaning of layp?

Eto na naman ako. Nagsisimula ng panibagong blog.

July, 2015 litrato bago ang pag-martsa. Ako, kasama ang mama ko (naka-pulang damit) at ang supportive auntie at uncle ko na galing pang Cebu.

Ako ay isang kakasablay lamang na iska. Where am I now? a. Call center munaaaa gaman naman lagi pag fresh grads b. Nasa isang malaking company, iska e, malamang may trabaho na yan, the first Monday after grad! c. Ayun, nasa America na ata, umo-OTWOL lang ang peg, follow your american dream… 

Eh. Pwede gang may none of the above? Thug life kasi ako sa ngayon. Haha okay, that’s an exaggeration. Actually, I am waiting for a call for my contract signing *fingers crossed* but currently, I take on editing and writing jobs, in short self-employed ako sa ngayon. Well, there’s that pero full time katulong muna ako sa bahay namin haha! I am happy to be helping my family while semi supporting myself through these editing jobs. 

With my devcom friends hart hart

I am kinda feeling the pressure though, since last week pa. My friends are already pursuing their media careers, some are teaching already in big universities. Yung iba nasa DOST, DAP…other government agencies pa. Yung iba nagvo-volunteer, pumupunta sa kung san-san. Samantalang yung iba, nasa final interviews na nila. Swerte nila kasi pinapansin agad ang kanilang resume sent online huhu.

I can’t say I have not felt a twinge of jealousy because I have. But I trust God when He says, He will not forsake me, that He made me a life of purpose. So ayun. Gora pa rin ako with life naman. Praying helps!

I have this habit na tuwing may tatawag saking possible job, I grab my bible/devotional/or any christian book at naghahanap ng word galing kay God. Advice kumbaga. I dunno, I think I’m searching for…His assurance na eto na yun! Eto na yung pinakahihintay kong work.

One day ang nabuklat ko sa isang Daily Bread book na devotional is about John 19:28-30 wherein Jesus said that He was thirsty…after that the will of God was fulfilled. Grabe patak patak na luha ko non kasi I can’t say I have been the best child ni Lord. I was so dry, my prayer life was little to non-existent. Pero ang ginawa ni Jesus to fulfill God’s will ay ang mauhaw pa sa God the Father. Eh ayun. Taliwas ako e. Lumalapit lang ako kay Lord tuwing may kailangan lang ako which is very wrong. So ayun, na enlighten ako, para gang may angels’ chorus sa background going “hwaaaaaaaa”.

Corny ko.
Bottomline talaga e wala pakong trabaho penge namang trabaho jan. Haha just kidding.

I also want to say na oo andaming trabaho na tumawag sakin na willing na tanggapin ako right then and there pero a. Pabebe ako? b. Tinatamad lang c. Baba ng sweldo, hindi worth it?

Actually again, wala sa options. Yes. Yung mga trabahong tumawag sakin wala naman sa options ko kasi I’d rather work for a low paying job na gusto ko ang environment at worthwhile ang ginagawa ko dun such as NGOs na nagko-contribute sa nationbuilding. Kaysa naman sa trabahong high-paying as in 💵💵💵 wooo, pero in the long run naman, alam kong it will suck my soul out, suck my idealistic outlook. Yung maitatanong mo habang nagta-type ka sa harap ng mac computer desktop, crouched in your chair in a vast office, “Para saan ba tong ginagawa ko? Ano ang meaning ng layp?” Chas. You know what I mean.

So you, yes you, reading my post who is currently unemployed or stuck in a fork road just like me. It is so okay to take your time. Wag mong pansinin yung pamemresyur sayo ng magulang mo haha they only want the best for you anyways. Though I can understand na mayroon ding fresh grads na tipong may limang kapatid pang papaaralin at nakapangako kay inay ng house and lot, dre, I can understand the pressure. Just seek God okay. Also, I will be praying for an open heaven para sating mga naghihintay ng work opportunity. Ya’ll only have to believe in it and you shall receive in Jesus’s name!

That’s it for this first blog post.
Stay real, have faith! 😘👊

Signing out,

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Nasaan ka na work? What is da meaning of layp?